Same Day, New Thoughts

Mary has left for the day. So, have Miss Flo and Miss Jackie. My husband is at lunch with his partners. I am alone in the house. Would I be lonely?, I wondered.

I decided to take advantage of the incredible weather and beauty of the day -- and have lunch outside. As I got about half-way through my lunch -- a salad with venison meatloaf, our dog Blaze came to get some pats and loving. I finished my lunch, took the plate inside and sat with Blaze on the steps.

Blaze is an enormous dog, half-Burmese mountain dog, half-Rottweiler, and scares our handymen half to death. He has a ferocious bark, but he's the most loving dog I have ever known. So, there we were, sitting on the back steps in the Carolina sun, him leaning against me, and me petting him and that's when I realized...

....everything about my new life is love. I feel it everywhere. I am just embraced by love. I feel love from my husband, from the ladies who work in the house, from Mary, Landon's assistant, from the people here at Brays, from the gentle marsh air, from the fragrant flowers -- everything speaks to me of love. And, suddenly I realize, I am happy.

I just need to establish new rhythms in my life to take care of the needs I have, that's all. When I was in New York, I developed a pattern of going out and doing things...because I was alone and I could. But, I longed for a life-partner, a husband, a soul mate, with whom I could share and enjoy life. Now I have that so it's silly to think that the same strategies that I employed as a single person would work for me know, being married.

I need to be in touch with bright, fun, thoughtful, spiritual women. So, I need to find a way to do that regularly.
I need to find ways to learn new things. I need to develop a kind of discipline to learn about the history surrounding my life here, to visit plantations, to understand the new cultures, like Gullah and Geechee African based cultures.
I love music -- and that's why Landon and I go out to hear NYC sponsored Chamber Music. And, we need to find another Blues Club now that the Brewery has closed.
I love to dance -- and I have looked into the schedules of the Savannah Swing Group and the Charleston Swing.
I love to ice skate -- and when Richie and I figure out what happened to my figure skates (lost in the mail?) I will make regular time to skate again.
I want to learn how to horseback ride. So, I just need to make time to take lessons.
I would like to get to know more folks here at Brays. So, I will make time to visit with them.
I have always dreamed of having a power boat and being able to water ski and take the boat to islands. I can do that here!

There are so many possibilities -- and if I focus on all of the options available to me, I am thrilled and excited. If I focus on what I don't have, I am miserable and sad.

My focus for the next month will be to get the house in order, to get my office in order and to create a foundation so that I can start living my life.

What do you think?